Sunday, July 17, 2011

Keeping my eyes on Jesus...

Okay, so here is the back story on the last post.

First off, the IRS.  Funny how they demand your money from you at a certain time or else there is a big penalty, but when they owe you money, they can simply say..."We think there was a miscalculation, here is $5,000. less than what you were supposed to get, have a nice day!"  Um, no, you still owe us $5,000. and so, we are fighting with the IRS.  Our tax guy assures us we will get it, we just need to bug them for it!  Okay tax guy, have at it, and I am so thankful that that is what he is doing!

I was hoping to post this exciting post about our 'new home,' but, we are having some major issues with our FHA, 203k "Specialist"   Ha!  That is a huge joke.  This person is completely inept, you can read about what they are supposed to do here but, unfortunately our experience,  has been one of delays, in fact, we were supposed to close on this house on June 29 and this is the 3rd extension we have had to file since our 'specialist' keeps asking for more information and more inspections usually a day before we are supposed to sign on the house!  Now, I don't have a problem giving them the info and doing the inspections etc...because we don't have the $$ and we need it from them, but for heavens sake, make a list, check it twice, if certain things need to be done, tell us up front, don't wait till the last possible second!!!  So, yes, we are hoping we will have a house soon, but I'm not gonna tell ya all about our new place until it is signed for!  Hopefully with in the next 2 weeks...we shall see.

What does all this have to do with keeping my eyes on Jesus?  Well, sometimes, especially in situations like this, I take my gaze off of Jesus and fix my eyes on something else.  In this case, money or a house.  All of a sudden that 'thing' becomes the most important 'thing' and well, that's just not right.  I did that with Anaya, when things started going awry with her adoption, I stopped focusing on Jesus and the things God wanted me to do, learn, and cling to at that time, and I became fixated on her, and the things that were going wrong.  And that, my friends, is a miserable existence.  Easy to do though, isn't it?  I don't know about you, but when things go wrong, I get all aflutter and start questioning, "Now, where is God in all of this, what in the world is He doing?"  And while I might ask myself that, the answer I am coming up with {this time} is that God has a plan, HE knows, HE cares, and I better believe that this is for my good, and trust HIM.  And so, as we wait, we are fixing our eyes on Jesus and trying to live by HIS example, waiting patiently for God to reveal HIS plan and continuing to trust HIM!    

Hebrews 12

                                                                             ( The Message)
 1-3Do you see what this means—all these pioneers who blazed the way, all these veterans cheering us on? It means we'd better get on with it. Strip down, start running—and never quit! No extra spiritual fat, no parasitic sins. Keep your eyes on Jesus, who both began and finished this race we're in. Study how he did it. Because he never lost sight of where he was headed—that exhilarating finish in and with God—he could put up with anything along the way: Cross, shame, whatever. And now he's there, in the place of honor, right alongside God. When you find yourselves flagging in your faith, go over that story again, item by item, that long litany of hostility he plowed through. That will shoot adrenaline into your souls!


Anonymous said...

I am praying 4 u! give Anaya a high five from Sophie